That’s What She Said: Now My Troubles are Going to Have Troubles With Me

| March 24, 2015 | 2 Comments

“I’ve heard there are troubles of more than one kind, some come from ahead and some come from behind…” 


This weekend The Shepherd and I took a close quarter force on force combatives class from QSI Training.

Whether you carry everyday or not, taking these classes is the best way to learn how to quickly defend yourself with whatever you have at hand. You will test your stress response, your holster, your bag carry, your knife placement and style, and you’ll be able to make educated decisions about every gear choice you’ve made so far. It is not uncommon for people to replace things they started the class with. You find out quickly if your set up is too cumbersome, or not easily accessible. I ditched my last backpack because I realized that distinguishing between the 3 sets of zipper pulls was impossible when I couldn’t look down to see them. I’ve been testing various modes of on body carry for a couple of seasons now.

Because this was a close quarter class, the emphasis of each scenario is hands-on and staged in small spaces.

This is my nightmare.

I’m small. I’m alone a lot, and while I’m much more situationally aware than most, I am a very easy target. As I navigate each parking garage, elevator, public restroom and dark hallway I consider the very things we practiced last weekend.

These classes scare me. I hate the thought of being overwhelmed physically, but in order to learn how to escape, you’ve gotta get trapped. Our instructors always ask before they demonstrate a hold, and they are incredibly patient and respectful with each scenario. They know that people usually react to these kinds of attacks by either freezing, or panicking (or in my case irrational anger).  Their goal is to give us simple, easy to execute techniques to fixate on instead of the fear. This isn’t high level jiu-jitsu, but it’ll be effective.

This week I learned how to stop someone from being able to throw me to the ground by wrapping my foot and leg around theirs when they picked me up and restrained my arms. I learned a claw technique used to attack the eyes so you can get away. I learned how small a space can feel when you’re trapped by a bigger, more skilled person.

But I also learned that I can use my size too, and that sometimes being small and quick can be a bigger advantage than being big.

You experience the world differently when you’re smaller and less strong than almost everyone else. The close quarters class combined all of my nightmare fuel into an eight hour period.

But I am replacing that fear with options one class at a time.

But I’ve bought a big bat. I’m all ready you see. Now my troubles are going to have troubles with me.” Dr Seuss



About the Author:

The She-Shepherd The She-Shepherd is a defensive firearms student, mother and advocate for pushing the boundaries of how we train. She believes that defensive training must balance context, mindset, and skill to be most effective. Her specialty has become testing alternative modes of firearms carry and best practices of less than lethal force options through rigorous force-on-force scenario based training.

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  1. Kyliewyotie says:

    A Dr. Seuss quote! Awesome.

    Being a fairly large person, I experience the opposite. I feel sluggish and unmaneuverable. I train to become stronger on a regular basis, and have also began to train for dexterity, and nimbleness.

    I like the idea of a few go to “moves” Replacing the fear with an action seems like a great idea.

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